Hello Mathieu.
Wow, that feels weird after 3 years of not speaking. Why am I writing this to you in English ? I’m not really sure… Maybe because I’ve discovered that that’s the way I like to express myself and that way you can’t judge me in terms of language issues. Although I am in bac L I don’t actually like French as much as I used to.
Anyway, besides the point. If I’m writing this to you it’s because I know you’ll manage to understand at least half of it and if not will use Google translator. I don’t know what is to become of this but I know I have wanted to write to you for quite a long time but not really knowing how to get round to it. Eventually I remembered you had a blog and due to various investigations I found it and I decided to write to you.
As the years have gone by I have actually come to miss you, not in a love way I assure you but in a friendship way. I remembered alot of good times we had together and alot of things in general and it gave me time to think. Consider that I have completely forgotten what happened when we « went out » together although I must admit it hurt me for a long time. However, I do not want to get into a fight over this, that’s not the reason why I’m sending you this.
Why did I choose this text to write under ? I don’t know. In a way it reminded me of how you used to write when we « knew » each other. I just found it really beautiful. So I know that technically this « thing » i’m writing doesn’t really have an aim just that I guess it’s another way for me to « move on » in my life and I realised that this was one of the first steps to take. I never really get mad at anyone and I always go along the same lines… « forgive but not forget »
However, as far as this is concerned I am willing to forget because you were a really good friend to me and I loved you very much. You made me laugh which was more than I could expect from my family and most of my friends. And regardless of your sometimes mean words, you did give me confidence which I thank you for.
Right, I think I’ve made my point. If you don’t want to contact me that’s fine because I must admit that this might be quite weird for you but I have gone beyond caring if what I do is weird or not. However if you DO want to contact me, well, you have my e-mail address above. But be warned, if you start being mean to me and calling me words like « bitch »or « whore » don’t bother, it will be pointless. I know you’ll make the right choice. Never forget that we were once friends.
For my part, I apologise for everything bad that has happened between us and I hope you’ll forgive me for what you consider I have done bad to you. I hope your life is as good as you want it to be and that you are as mature as you seem to have become to be able to understand why I’m writing to you.
Best Regards,
Gabrielle.
